Kamikaze

Round 33: March 2038 (Autumn)

last update/Anthony and Noah's next update/Veronica and Adelaide's next update/

Anthony and Veronica Moretti are 21 and Adelaide Sitko and Noah Gottlieb are 20.

(Josh is 24, Sebastian is 22 and Jessica is 18)

Narrated by Veronica Moretti

I’ve just started my senior year and things are so busy for me at the moment.

This year, I’m doing student teaching at Sullivan Primary School. All my classes on campus are in the evening this semester but it’s still difficult to fit it all in.

The days when I’m teaching and have classes afterwards, I’m totally exhausted by the end of it! It’s paying off though. If I can keep up this pace, I should graduate with honours.

Meanwhile, Anthony has 2 hours of classes a day and pretty much just lazes around the rest of the time. He does the bare minimum of work and his grades are still equal to mine. It’s like high school all over again.

He’s still “dating” Janette, my evil roommate, if you could call it dating. They don’t really go out all that often.

I’m still incredibly annoyed that out of all the girls on campus, Anthony had to start something up with Janette.

He doesn’t see the big deal. Apparently, I shouldn’t be bothered by it because they’re not serious.

That much is obvious, given the way Janette seems to be all over just about every guy in the dorm.

Anthony knows but he doesn’t seem to care. I wish he’d get bored of her and just dump her already. I don’t want to have to still be dealing with her once we’ve graduated and got out of the dorms.

Adelaide’s boyfriend Sebastian graduated last year but he ends up on campus a lot anyway.

He’s intent on being all “authentic” with his music, so he won’t get a real job. He just busks and he says he gets the best interest on campus.

You’d think students would all be too poor to throw money at buskers but he does pretty well.

Sebastian and his brother Oliver (my ex) have moved into this apparently awesome warehouse in Exeter.

Adelaide wants me to come see it but I really don’t want to. I’m fine with Sebastian but I feel like it would be really awkward seeing Oliver again.

He’s moved on and so have I but he was pretty sore about it when I dumped him. I don’t know if it’s a great idea. Break-ups are messy and I just don’t have the energy to deal with it.

Although Noah and Jessica seem to be doing okay with theirs. Noah was prepared for some awkwardness when Jessica moved to campus this year but it’s been okay.

They’re not hanging out much or anything but they can run into each other and say hello and it seems like they’re quite friendly.

Noah has started seeing someone new, so maybe he’s just in a really good mood lately.

Her name is Brigit and she’s the same age as Noah, though she’s not a student. She skipped college, worked for a little while and is now a police cadet.

They’ve only been together a couple of weeks, so they’re still in that honeymoon phase.

Noah hung around the dorms most of the summer but I’ve hardly seen him the past two weeks. He's been spending most of his time with Brigit.

I haven’t met her yet but Anthony has. He said she seems like a sweet girl and is really friendly.

As for me, I’m still dating Josh and we’ve been together about a year and a half now.

It's been going pretty well for us, at least from my perspective.

But recently, I’ve realised that Josh has been taking our relationship way more seriously than I have been. He’s been talking about me moving in with him once I graduate.

I really didn’t know what to say to that. I tried to stay calm but inside, I was panicking.

I’m just so not ready for a move like that. I’ve never once considered “the future” with Josh. I barely think about our next date, let alone next year.

But he asked me to think about it, so I have been.

And I’ve been talking about it too, with Adelaide. The idea of getting serious with Josh makes me feel claustrophobic.

I’ve come to the conclusion that I just can’t do it.

Adelaide doesn’t really get it. She’s only ever been with Sebastian, with no desire to be with anyone else.

Sebastian’s the commitment-phobe in their relationship. I think Adelaide would jump at the chance to move in with him when she’s done here at Suffolk.

Talking to her did help me sort my head out though and realise maybe I don’t want to be with Josh at all.

I don’t really get excited about seeing him any more and I spend a lot of time thinking about other guys, like one of my art professors.

It’s so cliched, a student crushing on her handsome young professor but Miles Jacobson really is a fine looking man!

And there are so many other cute guys around as well.

I feel like I'm too young to tie myself down to just one of them.

Not that I want to date some guy in an orange sweatsuit but I’ve realised that I do want to have my options open.

So I decided to break things off with Josh and tried to explain why I was doing it.

Josh really wasn’t happy but I wasn’t expecting him to be.

I also wasn't expecting him to accuse me of cheating on him though, which isn’t true at all.

He's always known I'm kind of a flirt and that's as far as it's ever gone with anyone but him the whole time we've been together.

Things are understandably weird between me and Josh right now. I hope it's settled down a little by the time I move back to Sullivan and start running into him more regularly.

Notes:

• Title is from Kamikaze by PJ Harvey.
• Veronica and Anthony have both now graduated, both with 3.8 GPAs. More information on them in the January birthdays.
• Noah is still maintaining his 4.0, while Adelaide has a 3.2. During the first semester, she rolled her first want to write a term paper ever and boosted her GPA to a 3.3 but in the second semester, she remembered she was Adelaide Sitko and went back to being a fairly reluctant student. ;)
• Brigit is a Jock social group townie who I've had my eye on for a while. ;) Noah has three bolts with her, so I thought I'd let them make a go of it. She's very cute.
• Veronica rolled not a single want for Josh, romantic or otherwise, except when I sent them on a date (and even then, it was like pulling teeth). When I loaded the lot, she had all uni-related wants and once I had her fulfill a couple of those, she rolled up the want to be friends with Miles and to kiss him. :\ I don't think Matilda is willing to share and Miles isn't having any of it anyway, so she's going to have to find someone else to focus on!